Love is the harmony. Desire is the key.

So many things have been running through my mind lately. It’s not as easy being twenty-two as I had once pictured. I desperately need a second job and lately I’ve been having second thoughts about my career path. I’ve always been interested in makeup and I can’t help but feel compelled to give that a run to truly find my niche. I’ve been pushing for a job at MAC for a couple months now and they said they would be giving me a call in February. I’m nervous of being overlooked…I just want them to give me a chance. If they don’t call by next week, I will give them a call. I need to be strong…it’s just so hard when my confidence is at an all time low. Keep pushing forward. Now I’m not saying I’m completely done with hair, but why not both? I’m just not happy where I am and I need to find reassurance in something. Money has been so tight. I’m just waiting on that call. If it doesn’t happen I don’t know what I will do. I would love to go to makeup school, but I have bills to pay and I can’t live and pay for school on these tiny paychecks. Plus, I’m certified in cosmetology and I understand makeup, which is more of a reason to give me a chance. I need something to be proud of right now and unfortunately I’ve lost that feeling. I’ve been finding comfort in my alone time lately. With my mind being so clouded, I need it to stay centered. Sometimes I don’t feel like myself at all. My head is spinning and so much has been going on in my personal life that I’m struggling with and being forced to deal with. I want everything to be sorted out before I move away. I don’t want to leave feeling like I’m running away rather than moving on to something that could change me for the better. Ten months to fix this mess of emotion I’ve stumbled into. A second chance to get it right and the freedom is so close. Everything bothers me lately. I don’t want to feel that way.

So many things have been running through my mind lately. It’s not as easy being twenty-two as I had once pictured. I desperately need a second job and lately I’ve been having second thoughts about my career path. I’ve always been interested in makeup and I can’t help but feel compelled to give that a run to truly find my niche. I’ve been pushing for a job at MAC for a couple months now and they said they would be giving me a call in February. I’m nervous of being overlooked…I just want them to give me a chance. If they don’t call by next week, I will give them a call. I need to be strong…it’s just so hard when my confidence is at an all time low. Keep pushing forward. Now I’m not saying I’m completely done with hair, but why not both? I’m just not happy where I am and I need to find reassurance in something. Money has been so tight. I’m just waiting on that call. If it doesn’t happen I don’t know what I will do. I would love to go to makeup school, but I have bills to pay and I can’t live and pay for school on these tiny paychecks. Plus, I’m certified in cosmetology and I understand makeup, which is more of a reason to give me a chance. I need something to be proud of right now and unfortunately I’ve lost that feeling.

I’ve been finding comfort in my alone time lately. With my mind being so clouded, I need it to stay centered. Sometimes I don’t feel like myself at all. My head is spinning and so much has been going on in my personal life that I’m struggling with and being forced to deal with. I want everything to be sorted out before I move away. I don’t want to leave feeling like I’m running away rather than moving on to something that could change me for the better. Ten months to fix this mess of emotion I’ve stumbled into. A second chance to get it right and the freedom is so close. Everything bothers me lately. I don’t want to feel that way.

  1. kelseacardoza said: You can do it
  2. leahlacsamana said: Bare Escentuals is opening up a boutique at the Wrentham Outlets and I think they may be hiring. If you’re interested, let me know! My old manager contacted me about working there and told me to ask around.
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